Goodbye, My Little Angel

It's been awhile since I've updated and when I do post something, I came bearing bad news.
My most beloved cat, Jajan had just passed away this afternoon.

Even though I was prepared for his departure since he was already showing signs of old age a month back, I still cried. I'm still crying while typing this.

The only regret I have is that I wasn't by his side when he moved on.

Jajan had been sick for months. Always wheezing and having sudden cramp attack that left him immobilised for some time. All I did when he was suffering was pet him and talked to him as he lay on the bed, eyes wide and scared. Every single time, I cried 'cause it hurts to see him like this.

He hasn't been eating at all, merely drinking water. As time passed, he began to get really skinny, even skinnier than my black cat, whom I said was skinny. He peed on my bed twice, and even on himself. Sometimes he shits in my room too.

But you know you really love your pet when none of these things angered you even the slightest.

For the past week, he hasn't been sleeping with me. Always went to my parent's bedroom and slept under the bed. Eveytime I carried him to my room, he would stay there for a few moment before disapperaing again. I understands though. When cats are dying, they want to be left alone.

There were many times when Jajan appeared to be having his last breath. Till at one point, I whispered to him that if he wants to leave, just leave and that it's ok.
And two days later which was today, he did.

Yesterday, my brother knocked on my door and carried Jajan into my room before placing him on my bed. Sometimes I wondered if he wanted to see my brother one last time. Because in the end, Jajan was my brother's cat. He was the one who chose him to be one of the family members.

This morning, I woke up and saw Jajan in the kitchen. Seeing that he peed on himself again, I decided to give him a bath. It was the last bath for us. It pained me to see him trying to move and let out his voice as I shampooed him. He couldn't even move when I placed him on my lap and showered him.

Two hours later, I found him dead under my parents' bed. I scooped him in my lap and spent some moment kissing him for one final time. Though it greatly saddened me that I wasn't by his side when he took his last breath, it was nice to know that when I had found him, my black cat was by his side. At least he didn't die alone.

My mom said that maybe he wanted to go when he's cleaned.
But I guess whatever it is, Jajan's gone and his sufferings had finally ended.

I'm going to miss watching his sleeping face.

I'm going to miss looking at his back next to my head.
I'm going to miss burying my face in his fur when I sleep even though I complained about having flu the next day.
I'm going to miss kissing his mouth and nose.
I'm going to miss his loud irritating voice, mewing at me every time he wanted my attention.

I'm going to miss his claws digging into my skin.

I'm going to miss playing with his ears.
I'm going to miss poking at his short cute tail and see it twitched in annoyment.

I'm going to miss fangirling about Arashi in front of him.

I'm going to miss shocking him with my sudden random squeals.
I'm going to miss seeing him twitch in his sleep.

I'm going to miss hitting him slightly hard and see him glaring at me.

I'm going to miss him coming to me whenever I called his name.
I'm going to miss bathing him.

I'm going to miss bestowing him with my kisses.
I'm even going to miss him vomitting on my bed.

But most of all, I'm going to miss having him by my side.

Jajan,

Thank you for being a wonderful companion to me for these 14 years of my life.
You were always there whenever I was sad, coming to me and lying down next to me as I cried. Always there when I was happy or angry. I hope you had lived your life to the fullest when you're in this family. And I hope I have been a good and worthy owner to you.

Now I prayed you are having a blast of a time up there while I will try my hardest to recover from my loss. Do not worry about me though. I am surrounded by people who will make sure I will be alright.

Rest in Peace, Ajan. I love you.

You are and will always be my little angel

Life is Beautiful

Heyhey!! OMG after more than 5 months, I'm finally updating my blog LOL
But I guess no one really cares ( except for Huisian who's bugging me to update it XD )

And guess what? My long awaited post will not be abt Arashi!! ( or maybe jus a little abt them haha )

Anyway, I'm sooogonna get bricked but after all those things I've said abt never watching Kdrama, I went and watched one.

Life is Beautiful is the title~

The reason I knew this drama was because someone posted clips about this gay couple in it, and after watching the clips, I found the drama to be interesting so in the end I went and watched the while 64 episodes of it XDXD

Basically it's about a family living in Jeju Island. In my opinion, it's like a 'As the World Turns' minus all those angsty moments. This one is mainly a comedy drama I guess with a bit of angst here and there. I will intro the family members with a bit of my opinion about them. Of course I will start with the main reason I knew this drama in the first place LOL

I will describe them according to Tae Sub's relations and not in general.

Yang Tae Sub

The eldest son of the family who is a closet gay. He is an introvert. A sensitive and calm, polite doctor in his thirties. The kind that everyone wants as a son.

When I first saw him, I already fallen in love with the character and the actor.. LOL.. I guess I just like older guys now and he reminds me of Jackie Chan HAHAH!
Well, I like his character in the drama. Hard to describe but he's very well- mannered man though he showed his coldness towards his step mom. Still, his step mom treasures him the most among all her children. It's so damn obvious.

He can also be a bit prissy with Kyung Soo, his boyfriend. Sometimes his reaction makes me go WTH??!

Kyung Soo

Kyung Soo's personality is opposite of Tae Sub. He's more outgoing and straightforward. He already came out to his family and was treated like a black sheep of the family. He was divorced and has a daughter. He's a lecturer and photographer.

I have to say, I want a boyfriend like him *o*
He's sooo nice towards Tae Sub and so patient and understanding~

By the way, Tae Sub and him are at the same age.

 Chae Young

Tae Sub's ex-girlfriend. A cheerful woman who kept clingin to Tae Sub even though she broke up with him.

She appeared in Arashi's show before XDXD
At first, I didn't really like this girl. Especially when she barged into Tae Sub's house and met his parents when he already told her he's not interested in getting back with her. She's liek so deaperate.

But apart from that, I guess she's okay~

The Mom, Kim Min Jae



She's a cool mom in my opinion. Yeah the typical mom who nag and cares for her children. But seriously, she needs to set aside some of the biasness towards Tae Sub ( and they're not eve blood-related )

Anyway, the way she handled the situation when her son told her about him being gay is A+... Of course she went all angry and sad but she gave him 100% support.. It's very sweet.

The Dad, Yang Byung Tae

Tae Sub's dad. And I love him!!! He's nice and gentle and cares alot about his children. It's like as long as you are happy, he's happy. He cried when he knew about Tae Sub, worrying about how his son was going to survive in the world ( since Korea is very against gays. ) rather than about his son being gay, and that's sayinga lot about his personality.

Both of the parents are soo cute together~ Always rooting for their children and each other. Love all the moments both of them shares. It's sweet to look at XD

Yang Ho Sub

Tae Sub's younger bro.

He's cute and funny and I love how protective he is of his older bro. He was all 'If Kyung Soo upsets you, I'll beat him up.'

He was pretty accepting when he knew about his bro, always siding with him. Though I think at the beginning he kind of don't understand his bro much since the latter is always by himself and does not talk much.

The Grandparents

The grandma hates the grandpa. It's kinda complicated. Something about her husband leaving them behind and not caring about her at all when they were younger. And now, he had returned to the household after being kicked out of his own house.

It's damn funny at the beginning of the series when they tried their best to hide him from the grandma.

Kyung soo's Mom

I can't remember her name but seriously if this is Cinderella, she is the terrible stepmom. She so cunning and only thinks about herself, even though she stressed that its for the family. She was always on Kyung Soo's tail, begging and forcing him to go back to his ex-wife. Frankly it's damn irritating and of course I felt like strangling her. It's just the way she hounds on them. She's like the devil in the drama.

Tae Sub was afraid of her when she came to him and threaten him that she will spill it to his parents. Yeah I know, Tae Sub is a coward but I <3 him anyway Lol

 Yang Ji Hye

Tae Sub's step sis. A short-tempered woman and abit too controlling of her husband.

At first I didn't really like her 'cause she's the typical modern kind of woman. She was abit miffed about the fact that her mom cares more about her step sis than her own daughter.

But after a few episodes, I grew to like her alot. She's pretty strong-headed at times and I love her for siding with her bro when he came out.

Yang Cho Rong

Tae Sub's younger sister. A bright girl. She was the first to found out about Tae Sub.

I like her at first but especially during Tae Sub's coming out. She was supportive of him, even though she cried her heart out cos she had a major crush on Kyung Soo lol.

But when Ho Sub was getting married, she had this bitchy, irritating side of her which I guess people called it brother complex. And she was awfully mean to her friend who was sorta her boyfriend?

Yang Byung Joon

Tae Sub's oldest uncle. A serious man.

I have to say I really love this guy alot! He's like the most supporting man I have ever seen XD

I thought he would be the one to give Tae Sub the cold shoulder or be disgusted by him due to his no-nonsense nature but I was wrong. He was the most understanding one out of all, handling the situation with so much calmness.

Yang Byung Keol

Tae Sub's yougest uncle. A man who only knows how to shoot his mouth without thinking.

Seriously, as much as I love him for his comedic actions, I really despise him most of the times. He really didn't know how to read the atmosphere, always saying things he shouldn't be saying.

He was the most disgusted with Tae Sub, cursing him and regarded the man as a dirty bastard.

Boo Yeon Joo

Ho Sub's love interest.

Nothing much to say except she's a diligent woman. I wasn't into her at first especially when she showed some arrogant attitude towards Ho Sub.

Jo Ah Ra

Byung Joon's love interest and Chang Young's auntie/cousin?

Aside from her weird accent when she spoke japanese, I kinda like her. though her flirty attitude kinda irked me at the beginning but her relationship with Byung Joon is interesting to watch :D

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I guess that's all~

There are other characters but I don't really care much about them lol..

Of course the drama doesn't ficus on KyungTae ( Kyung Soo and Tae Sub ) all the time since the drama is not about them. I think this is a drama I recommend some of those to watch :)

Maybe it will have give awareness to some about gays.

PS: I am SOOO gonna have a KyungTae picspams in the next entry XDXD